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Will I love my second baby as much as my first?

August 23, 2016 9:12 pm0 comments

When I was pregnant with my second, I kept panicking that I would prefer one child to the other. Oh, how heartbreaking it would be if I liked the new baby more than my first son, O! How could I betray him like that? And then in the next moment, I’d be thinking: I could never, ever love anyone as much as I love O. It’s so sad that this poor dear baby will always play second fiddle to his brother!

It was all quite dramatic for me. Then one of my dearest friends, a veteran mother of two, offered up these [hilarious] words of wisdom:

See, at first, you’ll favor the baby because he will be small and adorable and relatively predictable while O will be losing his mind in the corner over a broken Goldfish. Then, around the time baby begins to walk and gain some independence (read: he can actually find you while you’re hiding in another room), you will start wearing your Team O t-shirt on a more regular basis. Eventually it all evens out.

I found it amusing back in those days of pregnancy, but now that son #2 can indeed walk, and busts in on me in the bathroom to unravel the toilet paper and stick his little arm between my legs, I find it hilarious and impressively accurate.

On a more serious note, what they say about your heart expanding is really, really true. Before I had my first, I didn’t know I was capable of such a life-altering brand of love. And somehow, after number 2 was born, my already swollen heart ballooned again so that sometimes I am just overwhelmed with love and joy. Which is wonderful, considering that other times, the feelings of overwhelm are a wee bit different…;)